When it rains it pours

K, more bad news. found out yesterday that the owners of my House want to move back in. So we have 60 days to vacate. The real estate agent was very nice about it, knowing that i have lived there for over 3 years now. he gave me a heads up as soon as the owners told him. It sucks majorly, as i had just moved rooms and had just settled in. having gotten everything i needed to organize the room. On the bright side at least its all is organized. i hate moving, i really do. it is all made worse by the fact that i love my house, the area i live in and everything. I just have to believe that God has a bigger and better house for us out there to find. so the search begins. i'll be living with the same people cause i don't want to have to get to know anyone. there is peace in our house, and i like to keep it that way.

I just feel like this year has been one trial after another. if it's not my health, it is a move, or a bill issue. i just feel a little battered. but hey, its ok. i'm strong and i know who my trust is in.....

i'll let you know how the house hunting goes.

In the hospital AGAIN

So yup, i was in the hospital again. not as an employee, but as a patient. this time my stint was thankfully only 1 night, but it could have been much more, if not for the grace of God. yup something is definitely wrong, and i will sort it out for certain, but for right now I'm glad to be going home. i really hate being in the hospital, i spend way too much time here as it is already. i was hospitalised for having severe abdominal pain and tenderness. some abnormalities were found in my blood and on CT and Ultrasound. the thing was that i felt ok, except for the pain. i mean i didn't fell 'sick'.

neways the most frustrating thing in this whole ordeal was that this happened on a hospital ADO, so there were not that many teams of doctors around. meaning, that while the poor O&G registrars went off fighting code critical cesareans and saving babies lives, i was left in limbo.... one moment going home, the next not, the next going to be on antibiotics. a decision was just not made, so i had the whole day with no treatment. it was a waste. i understand the reasons why it happened, but i was, and still am, a bit pissed that all Friday was spent being an inpatient in hospital and no progress made. i should have just been sent home. so my decision is that i am gonna see someone privately about my illness.

Oh well, all is good, god is good, he is still on the throne and he made it so that i didn't have to have an operation, so i am eternally grateful. i also now get 2 days off of work, which is so needed. i am still in some pain, but i have pills for that. so that has been my little adventure this week.

Much love.....

ED Nights

So this is my first of 4 nights on in the ED. tonight has been pretty good. we managed to clear Fast track, so now i have no patients to see. its been 1 hour, almost 5 am. i have a little over 3 hrs to go. i would sleep, but i know that once i do, my mind wiould be fogged up and i may not function well when i awake. i wish i did go to sleep, i didn't get any sleep yesterday... and i woke at 8 am for the tradie to come and check the lock on my back door. oh i didn't tell you... there was an attempted break in. they tried to wedge the picture window open/ take it off completely but with both locks on all they managed to do was take the door off the track and get it stuck on the ledge, with not enough room for someone to squeeze through. so it couldn't be opened from either inside or out. i had always wondered about the usefulness of the top lock on the door, well now i know. It WORKS. the reality of it is that if we just had one lock, the house would have been broken into , it needed both of the locks, in use, to thwart the plans of the theives. thanks be to God. i did also manage to fix the door myself. Handy Ruthie! That's me!

so yea, back to the work man, he was coming to check the top lock, cause it has been loose for a while and i was just a little concerend that if there is another attempt it may not hold. so i was up early and though i managed to get a bit over 1hr more of sleep, i am begining to feel it now. i have never been a fan of cat naps, but i may try one tonight.. i do hope no one else comes in till the morning, that would just be glorious....:)

ok enough of me rambling in my down time..... 4:55am on 01.05.09- man this year has gone by fast.....