Weekend Off

i did promise to write about my weekend off so here it is. ...

it started off on Fri with a trip to the beach. at the moment there is an exhibition on along the Bondi to Tamarrama walk, called sculptures by the sea. some really cool artwork. so i strolled and took pics, met my friend Bass there, who also had a day off from work. it was just cool and chill. he actually has the camera that i want, the nikon D80, so i got to play a bit. he chastised me for not buying it already since i am now working...lol. i told him all in good time...:) i also met some of his friends who were younger than me but who thought i was 22....lol... the looks on their faces when they learned my age was priceless. they were 19 and 23 so it was funny.

the next day was really ruthie time, and i decided that i would BBQ for the week. i actually went to the grocery store, the first time that i actually did a real shop since i have been back. can you believe that? it has taken 3 weeks. i don't even know what i was eating that whole time. mostly what i was doing was sleeping and working...lol. NEWAYS, i decided to do Jaime oliver's BBQ recipie. it was magnificent. i cooked leg of lamb on the bone and chicken. then on the spur of the moment, i called my friend Sharon to come and partake, which she graciously accepted. with the meat i also did a roast veggie salad of pumpkin, sweet potato, potatoes, mushrooms, asparagus and spinach with a kind of morrocan and cumin seasoning. that was my own recipie or rather my own chuck stuff together and it was brilliant if i do say so myself. it was a very goog meal, topped off with a glass of moscato, lovely. it also meant that i had lunch/dinner for the rest of the week.

my sunday was spent at church and chilling at sharon's house for lunch which turned into kind of dinner. she had people around and tons of food. it was great. i met some really interesting and fun people. it was really great to hang like that, cause it is so rare for me to have the time. i don't get to meet many new people and to solidify acquaintances. so all in all it was a really great weekend...... oh my goodness i forgot to tell you one of the best parts. on friday night i ended up going out with my friend Kemella and her husband Stephen to one of those VIP parties at Hugo bar. Stephen is a model/actor and so it was one of his agency parties. it was great fun. we were all looking hot, i think hotter than some of the models. i had a good time, but it wasn't a late night for me...:) you know how it goes, everything in moderation....

This Sucks

today has not started out as a great day. plans have fallen through, plans that i have been looking f0rward to for weeks. a situation which could really have been avoided, and my hopes not dashed. under other circumstances this would not even have caused me to bat an eyelid, but this failure of plans comes on the back of a very isolating week, where i was working in emergency. apart from seeing sick people and colleagues, i have seen no friends. don't get me wrong, some of my colleagues are my friends, but in a work setting, it doesn't count. i have seen no friends outside and the reality is that i only have 2 days off before i head into 7 night shifts, which is an even more isolating week than this one. i am lonely. i feel like i have no friends and i feel like i make so much effort, to rearrange things and use my precious day off to be prepared to travel to go and see people and they forget that they have all this stuff to do therefore can't meet up. seriously.... i cancel training sessions so that i can have this time and its like, where is the effort on your part. of course i'm all understanding and i know that people have family responsibilities etc, but in one sense i feel like here in Australia, where i have no immediate family, my friends are my family and right now i feel like i have none. no one to talk to anymore when i get off late, cause that set of friends have gone back to the states. no one to hang out with cause everyone, including me is too busy. .... ahhhh bway, this sucks.

as i said, the situation is probably not that bad, but just feels that way right now cause i am disappointed, isolated, lonely and most of my friends are away. sometimes there is only so much that i can do by myself. last weekend wasn't like this. it was warm outside, not cold like it is now and i went to the beach.... last weekend was great.... i'll share that with you in the next post.... but right this minute i'm pissed and sad.... i think i'll call my friends in the states, i know i have them there, then i'm gonna get a pedicure. i gotta do something to cheer me up. i'll write about the great weekend when i get back. the pick at the top is of one of the scultures by the sea, part of the great weekend. this one kind of represents my mood....