Life in Review

i went to a get together today where my friend's dad cooked for us. there were people there that i had heard a lot about but had never met. they were really cool people but i must say that i was not very comfortable. part of that was my consciousness that one of my friends sometimes, i feel, has issues with me meeting some of her friends. i don't know if territorial is the word but recently i have kind of decided that with her friends, i'm just gonna stay a bit away from. be cordial and everything, have great convos but really just not get too involved or too friendly. because of that i just wasn't very comfortable. i almost felt like i couldn't be myself. i was even more conscious about the impression i was making. normally it wouldn't even cross my mind. i don't know, i didn't like that feeling. and now looking back on the night i question myself on motifs, on convos, on actions, almost going over it with a fine-tooth comb. but hey, i'm just gonna let that one go, if there are any repercussions then i'll deal with them when they pop up. on the other hand the food was really great. really really lovely people and aside from those feelings i had a good time. pics are examples of the good time that i had.

on the up note i also went out for drinks with my surgical friend. that was cool, ended up listening to some live music. however it was cut short cause he was on call and was called back to the hospital. he is really cool, lovely to hang out with. well do it again......

ok some picks from last weeks B-day at Emma's house. a great friend and a great time. her daughter is so delicate...:) ... please forgive me for my thought jumping all over the place. not really with it at the moment. i'm gonna go to sleep soon as tomorrow my mom and 2 of my aunts arrive in Sydney quite early. i'm very excited. my dad and another aunt gets here on wed. they are all coming for my graduation which is on Friday. it is exciting times, and i can't wait for my mom to see where i have been living and my city. not to mention everyone else meeting them. it'll be great.

Well waddaya know

do yall remember the really nice Surgical Reg that i said i met. nice looking and cool. well for two weeks now we have kinda been flirting with looks. nothing over the top, just little convos, noticing each other if we are in the same space. well for a bit now i have gotten the feeling that he might want to hang with me, chat with me a bit more. well today he asked me out...... easily, calmly.... it was just like, 'Are u free on Sunday?' (he had asked me yesterday what i was doing friday, but alas i was working). i was like, 'yep', not thinking anything of it. then he said, ' lets go party.'....lol and i was like, 'ok.' so he gave me his number, i pranked him mine, and we'll see if he actually calls to set something up. i must say it was nice to be asked. and he was kind enough to give me a ride home, after he saw my patient. thank goodness, cause i would have had to wait on Maggie, who ends at 1 am, to drop me home, since she insisted that i not walk to the train station that late again (11pm and there after). i tell you i really, really need a car....... but am grateful and blessed with the friends i have....

night night

Linda's B-day and the weekend

this weekend was a very busy one. i worked, which is expected, on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. however this weekend was my Friend Linda's b-day. her party on Friday was pure hotness. Great food, nice people and a banging dance floor. she had all her DJ friends there, doing their thing. i was there till after 11, when i had to work in the morning. i told her that was love, cause you know if i'm not asleep early, something is wrong. ...lol. Neways while i was there, DJ Nick invited me to this full on reggae/african party thing he was putting on at one of the clubs on Saturday. i told him i had to work on Sunday, but that i would stop by for a little bit. well you know that that little bit turned into 2 am. it was a really great night. I danced, met new people, saw friends that i hadn't seen in a while and generally had a good time. i did get up on Sunday and go to church, cause i hadn't been in a while, then went to work. thank goodness i had today off... i needed to recuperate. In the photos are JT, Linda, Ramel, the girls and myself.

American Idol Sings Song by Darls

this past week American idol closed their show, Idol gives back, by singing 'Shout to the Lord' by Darlene Zschech, Worship pastor at my church. the song was from our 2000 album i think. how cool was that. of course it was an edited version, shortened and they took the name of Jesus out of the first line. i didn't catch it at first, i just thought that something wasn't right with what they sang....lol... watched it again and started to sing it and caught it then. it just doesn't have the same ring without it....lol

Peace and Blessings

Emergency

so i just finished my first sunday shift in emergency. worked the whole weekend. i think i agree with a friend of mine who said that she doesn't like ED cause you can't say, at least one week is over and we have the weekend. i don't mind ED. your mind is constantly occupied if you have patients. so the day goes quickly. but when u start to get tired you do get very tired, and i find that i am not eating lunch till around 2/3 pm. just get so caught up. it has really been a steep learning curve. i have made some mistakes, not life threatening ones, just system ones, and learned quickly from them. so now there are certain things i just done do, or will not do again or will do better. all in all it is getting better. i worked, thur, fri, sat, sun am and will work mon and tue 3 pm to 1 am. the need for a car is becoming more pressing, but i'm working on that.

im ok though, just not been able to see anyone really, so i come out of the ED with this craving for healthy human contact. almost like this emptiness inside me. i often want to call someone and chat to them. some times i want to hang out with some friends, but i am tired and will have to go to bed early cause i work the next day have to be on early trains, and other times at that time there is no one to call.

yesterday i also had a patient who died, soon after we transfered him to a high dependency ward. he was very sick and old, 87. he didn't want much to be done for him cause he was tired of it all. it was sad. i thought he would last the rest of the day at least, but he didn't. i could tell that he was a nice old man when he wasn't tired, cranky and annoyed at everyone. old people can be so funny. but i do find it sad when they are so helpless.

neways, i got to sleep late today...... but i still got up at 7:30 am. its later than i usually get to sleep...... so HHHHHHHUUUUURRRRRAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

New start

well my dears, work looms ever nearer and nearer. my first shift is thursday morning. i work all the way till next tue, then i have 2 days off. i am trying to figure out if i am nervous or not. i think i get more and more apprehensive the closer i get. i do just want to start, but i also want to be finished already. so in one sense time is going rather quickly and yet not fast enough. neways, i am sure i will write at some point next week to keep yall up to date, but who knows i may need to vent. anything can happen, and it probably will.

on the weekend i went to a BBQ for my friend Thiery's b-day. it was really good, chillin fun..:) she had great food and good people. it ended up being a busy saturday as i also had another BBQ at home and another b-day party at Philippa's house. even though it was busy, i am glad that i made to effort to go to all of them. i guess considering that i am working the first 2 weeks of April and missing 2 B-day picnics in the process. it was good to get to go to some things. i guess that is the life of a shift worker though. we do miss some important things. i am gutted that i am missing Leon's b-day though, i'll have to make it up to him. get him a big present. at least one that a one year old will appreciate.

on the other hand i am preparing for my parents and my aunts visit. they are coming at the end of the month for graduation and i am excited about that. i guess i am also excited about actually working as a doctor, its been a long time in coming.......

Addendum: one of my housemates is really pissing me off, self absorption and immaturity in how she is dealing with tension in the house is simply annoying me. its not looking good people....