Emergency

so i just finished my first sunday shift in emergency. worked the whole weekend. i think i agree with a friend of mine who said that she doesn't like ED cause you can't say, at least one week is over and we have the weekend. i don't mind ED. your mind is constantly occupied if you have patients. so the day goes quickly. but when u start to get tired you do get very tired, and i find that i am not eating lunch till around 2/3 pm. just get so caught up. it has really been a steep learning curve. i have made some mistakes, not life threatening ones, just system ones, and learned quickly from them. so now there are certain things i just done do, or will not do again or will do better. all in all it is getting better. i worked, thur, fri, sat, sun am and will work mon and tue 3 pm to 1 am. the need for a car is becoming more pressing, but i'm working on that.

im ok though, just not been able to see anyone really, so i come out of the ED with this craving for healthy human contact. almost like this emptiness inside me. i often want to call someone and chat to them. some times i want to hang out with some friends, but i am tired and will have to go to bed early cause i work the next day have to be on early trains, and other times at that time there is no one to call.

yesterday i also had a patient who died, soon after we transfered him to a high dependency ward. he was very sick and old, 87. he didn't want much to be done for him cause he was tired of it all. it was sad. i thought he would last the rest of the day at least, but he didn't. i could tell that he was a nice old man when he wasn't tired, cranky and annoyed at everyone. old people can be so funny. but i do find it sad when they are so helpless.

neways, i got to sleep late today...... but i still got up at 7:30 am. its later than i usually get to sleep...... so HHHHHHHUUUUURRRRRAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!