its been a really crazy day for me. like sailing on the calm seas and then all of a sudden we hit a storm and the waves begin to crash over me. i was then drowning in a sea of disappointment, weariness, frustration and sadness.
in the morning i had a casting, which was quick and easy. very simple. it always amazes me how a casting can really only take 2-5 min, but the process of getting there is usually way more than an hour. i was then rushing to get to work and rushing to try an finish the lodging of a publication before i had to go to Lab christmas lunch, which was yum cha. that was a bright spark in my day. i ate so much food and everyone was so relaxed. they are all lovely people and i don't get annoyed at my boss when we do lunch. she is a nice lady, when you get her out of the office and me, not in a pissy mood.
then something happened today that just made me a little disappointed in life in general. a friend of mine, who i, at one time liked but who, because i never got the same vibe from them, became just my friend, is now interested in another friend of mine. and though i am happy for them, it just brought home the fact that i am not getting any action my way at all. not to mention that it is slow, slow going with a person of interest, who i cannot read at all to tell whether they like me or not. not many options for me in that respect and it was just a sad, sad, frustration party.
neways, i got over that, but now i'm just worn out from my bout of depression. not to mention i have to go to work tomorrow and i am just longing for a true holiday. not much longer to go when im still in this job, so i'll just hang in there...
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