New Art work

i have gotten back into the mood to paint. i finally found my paintbrushes. i had already replaced them when i found them in the back of a cupboard. i then returned the ones i had just bought cause my old ones are like old friends. i love them. neways.... this was a christmas present. i hadn't given it a name yet, but as of this moment it shall be called.......Woman in motion... i think

Christmas Time

two days post Christmas and here are my reflections:
1. though it was different from my expectations, Christmas was exactly they way i needed it. it was relaxing......
i spent it with my friend who found herself in hospital. i also had dinner with Neevs and Janine. it was great food and chill time.

2. my year has been quite hectic and i am absolutely drained. i need to recharge before next year. cause that is looking like it will be a very busy one as well.

3. i feel like boxing day was the first day of my holiday, though i have been on holiday for 3 weeks (all of which i have been working). i was able to sleep allllll day. i only got up to talk to my fam in the morning, then for lunch and then for dinner. i slept in between those times. it was great...

4. my future is a bit uncertain, i'm having bits of difficulty dealing with this transition. i just pray for the Lords favour during this time. i am feeling unsure about medicine. i'm not sure where i'm heading after this. where i want to live, where i will end up and whether i am willing to do the work to get there. ahhhh we will see. all i know is that i have 2 years more here so far.

5. i think that is it so far.... i'm gonna give my honey bun, JT my full attention. i just got his DVD. ... oh that's another thing. i would really love a man in my life this next year.... i'm not seeing him yet, but i'm gonna ask God for him. i just may get him this next year.... oooooo

Pang of Disappointment

its been a really crazy day for me. like sailing on the calm seas and then all of a sudden we hit a storm and the waves begin to crash over me. i was then drowning in a sea of disappointment, weariness, frustration and sadness.

in the morning i had a casting, which was quick and easy. very simple. it always amazes me how a casting can really only take 2-5 min, but the process of getting there is usually way more than an hour. i was then rushing to get to work and rushing to try an finish the lodging of a publication before i had to go to Lab christmas lunch, which was yum cha. that was a bright spark in my day. i ate so much food and everyone was so relaxed. they are all lovely people and i don't get annoyed at my boss when we do lunch. she is a nice lady, when you get her out of the office and me, not in a pissy mood.

then something happened today that just made me a little disappointed in life in general. a friend of mine, who i, at one time liked but who, because i never got the same vibe from them, became just my friend, is now interested in another friend of mine. and though i am happy for them, it just brought home the fact that i am not getting any action my way at all. not to mention that it is slow, slow going with a person of interest, who i cannot read at all to tell whether they like me or not. not many options for me in that respect and it was just a sad, sad, frustration party.

neways, i got over that, but now i'm just worn out from my bout of depression. not to mention i have to go to work tomorrow and i am just longing for a true holiday. not much longer to go when im still in this job, so i'll just hang in there...

Cam's BBBQ

so this weekend i went to Cameron's house for a wonderful BBQ. i finally got to meet some of the people that i have heard so much about over the 5 years that i have known him. his brother Shaun, was cool and interesting, tall and not bad looking at all. and you all know that that is high praise from one such as myself. his other friends were all interesting people and i could see why they and Cam got along. it was very cool to meet his friend Dale, who is just a great and interesting thinker and writer. she was heaps of fun to be around. the day was filled with tasting of vegan cheesecake, chatting and listening to Cammy play the piano. which he does very well. i was also persuaded to sing songs while Cammy played. Hao and Dale waltzed and Cam's parents showed us a thing or two on the dance floor as admiration flowed from our audience of 3. it was really a nice afternoon into evening. there were other med friends there as well, so it was also great to catch up with them (Eric, Hao, Laura and Cath)

one of the highlights was Cam's jump into the freezing swimming pool (wearing his lab coat), symbolic of the end of Medical School. we all cheered him on while he downed a shot and made the leap. it was the stuff movies are made of. so here is my amateur video. Cam does look quite fetching with his hair slicked back and wet.



neways, the rest of the weekend was great, i went and saw Handel's Messiah at the magnificent Town Hall. it was beautiful and moving. Hao and Amelia than came with me to Church's christmas spectacular. it was all in all a busy, yet relaxing weekend.

Salsa

here is the video, not great quality i'm afraid, of Amelia and Eric dancing.

Christmas Paaaaartaaaaay

this weekend has been a good one. i am done school so that is just like a weight if off my shoulders. i am having trouble just letting go and resting though. i am still so keyed up. even though i am well tired mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. neways on saturday i baked Jamaican christmas cake. which was soooooo cool. it was my moms recipe and just has taken me back home you know? not to mention everyone else loved it as well. i also went to church, hung out with Neva and her friend Sara, and saw Bewolf in 3D. it was ok, i give it a 5/10. the 3D was very cool.

so today we had our our house christmas party and it was a raging success. i was a bit disappointed that one particular person didn't make an appearance, and didn't call to say they couldn't make it, but hey such is life. their loss. apart from that it was a brilliant afternoon into night BBQ. i was so glad that my friend John turned up. it was cool for him to meet the people that he has heard so much about. not to mention he is always a good person to have around. my friends Jan, Eric and Anna came as well, which was soooo cool. cause i haven't seen them in ages and i miss them. Eric was a hit as he is a great salsa dancer and Amelia, my flatmate dances as well. so those two had a great time dancing. we are now gonna have dancing lessons at our house, to make use of Amelia's skill. very cool. i met some really great people, cool friends of my flatmates and one of the highlights was the visit from cute boy from across the street, Fletcher. very nice looking bloke, and i had a good time flirting with him. lovely. i think we, as a house, will see more of him. i think we will be doing Margareta Sundays....lol. it was all a good time of just chilling, eating lots and chatting away. i'm tired now, so i'm gonna go to sleep. there is so much more that could be said but hey, that will have to wait for another day.

oh and have a look at our christmas tree, isn't it cool?

mmmm, apprehensive

i am not sure what is up with me today. i am just slightly apprehensive about what is next to come. ok the doctor thing goes without saying, but i have other things on my mind. there is so much i need to do and even though i do them, they don't seem to move me along any further. i need money but as of Jan i have no Job. after 4 years of working in the same place i am wondering if i shouldn't just hang in there for 3 more months instead of trying to find another job. however i honestly don't think i can handle my present job for those 3 extra months. so i'm apprehensive about a new job, a new temp job. it's like i don't even know where to start with that. there are other stuff on my mind, but i won't even bother to vent about those. i'm simply gonna go pray, cause lord knows that is the only way.......