Just call me Dr. Sterling

so today i had my final exam of my medical school career. it has been three days of exams. the first was written and then the final 2 days, clinical. the results are in and i passed everything. which is a weight off my shoulder. i cried. mainly cause it has been such a long hard road and i am so, so glad that it is over. i still have a presentation to do and Print to finish at the beginning of next year but, i am finished with exams. i start working at the end of march and earning some mula. the next step and chapter of my life is about to begin. this goal has been accomplished. i think i will bask in this for a bit, rejoice and be thankful and then see what is next. who knows maybe the lord will have a nice hubby for me as my next goal....lol... but first i think i will need to settle into this next stage. ah well, right now, i am relieved and happy... but still have some work to do for next week.... no rest of the weary i guess.....

Pics from Cam's B-day party

Cam Had a harry potter themed party this past Saturday. it was cool. good food, beautiful b-day cake and great costumes. Cam made her whole costume, she went as Professor Snape. she looked great. here are just a few shots... (pics are of Sharon, Shaz's mom, Rose and Cam; Shaz and me)

Saturday

now is probably not the best time for me to write a post, cause i'm tired, hungry and annoyed. i went to prepare a gift for my friend's 30th B-day, and would you know that i wasted pretty much 30-40 min in K-mart and left with nothing. i went to print some of my photo's to frame for her. the first machine wouldn't read my USB, so i thought i would try another. some one was on it, so hey i wait in line. well she was printing and editing 114 photos, and then another lady went on another machine and was doing like 400 photos. so i waited and waited. chatted to the woman behind me and waited some more. and would you know that once i got on the other machine, it didn't read the usb either. i tell you man, i doa have time for this shit, my study break that was to be no more than 15 min or so, stretched to almost an hour. so now i am annoyed. i'm just gonna eat and hopefully get back in the study frame of mind.

neways... just a quick note about last week, it was a great weekend. my flatmates and i held an impromptu BBQ on suday afternoon. we had great, great food and really good time chilling with a few friends. stayed chatting and drinking mohittos till into the night. oh Janine and I were wearing our new dresses that we bought on the saturday at the markets, after we refreshed ourselves with manicures and pedicures.

Neways, i gone eat. later

Peeved

what is it that makes someone think that i can be at their beck and call? what makes them so inconsiderate to the needs of others? my boss has been royally pissing me off for a while now, and i take it as a sign that it is probably time to leave. after 4 years i think the time has come. today i was well prepared to go into work, i emailed her in the morning and told her i was coming in. she emailed back saying she doesn't have time today and there is nothing for me to do, so don't come in. that was cool with me. i went home , then went to the gym and on leaving the gym, got a missed call from her. so i returned it, it was her asking me if i was coming in because there are images that she has just gotten that she wants plated. i was like, it is 6 o'clock!!! she was like, yea but i thought you were available.... i was like i was available at 3, i told you this and was well prepared to come in but u told me not to come. she said, yea i know but blah blah blah. then she asked where i was... i just simply told her that i am in the city on my way to study and that i can't come in. seriously what does she think, that because i said i was available, i don't have other things to do? that i should leave my schedule open just in case some late work comes in? that i should go in after 6 pm, ruin my plans to study and do other things? i find that just plain stupid, she has absolutely no respect for my time whatsoever. there are times we make plans to work, i go in and she calls hours later saying, well i guess i figured out that i'm not coming in. what is that? or the times when she fully expects me to stop doing other things in my life so that i can work till 9 pm if she wants. i know this is a small thing, but it just really peeved me off. sometimes, most times, she is unbelievable and only takes into account her needs and time, or things that impact her directly, never what anyone else is doing or sacrificing to make her research go forward. i'm done. as of January, i'm not working there anymore...

The Rest

so i started with a post yesterday, but didn't finish my thoughts about the rest of the week. it was a week packed full of lectures. yesterday, Friday November 2nd,2007, i attended my final lecture of my medical school career. that in itself is an exciting idea. i still have an exam in the last week in November, but i am crossing things off my list one by one. i also submitted my work visa application and did some other things that needed to be done. so i feel like i have made progress. this week i also took some new head shots, for the new season of commercials and acting gigs that comes with summer. they came out pretty well, so lets pray that i get some really good jobs from them. so that was the week so far. pretty ok......

Good to Bad

mmmmm, so today wasn't a bad day until i got into a discussion that began as a simple question and escalated to a discussion, a debate and almost an argument. the other party put a stop to it, mainly cause they thought they couldn't win and they were getting annoyed and upset with me, but it was definitely that both of us wasn't listening to each other. it left a bad taste and feeling. they felt they were arguing and i felt that it was getting heated but not arguing yet. i started to feel bad cause i knew that they were feeling upset and i realized something about myself again. i hate arguments and discussions. this is why i usually stay out of them. i also realized that i still do care about what people think about me. one of my first thoughts was, i wonder what they are gonna say once i leave. i realize that sometimes, what i do and say is not just governed by what i think is correct and such, but also what i think will go down well with other people. it affects me more when the parties involved are ones that i care about and who mean something to me. there is one particular friend, every time they say something to me, especially if i am not expecting them to either call or say something to me in a certain tone, my heart skips a beat and i am apprehensive. mainly cause i care about what they think about me and i do not want to have offended them or have done something that they thought was wrong. how pathetic is that. i really dislike that about myself. i really don't want to care........but the question is, can i stop? should i stop?